your name, my pain

***

and if i said, would you believe me? so, why should I say? just believe me.

***

in pain i lay, calling your name. in pain i laid; you called not my name.

***

was it mordant anguish? uncaring prying? for anguished i was, praying and crying.

***

Dry

Arid desert sky.

In fear I see, I do not know why.

I wish on my own I could fly.

Deny the murmur. Screams die.

Paradise in disguise.

Sadly, I do not recognize.

Perception of you must suffice,

until in you and reality, I arise.

yours

Don't forget pain,
nor leave it behind.
Trust it again,
for it is kind.

Let comfort convey.
Has led you thus far.
Shows you the way.
Tells who you are.

Reflection

She lies in the dungeons of night,
where moon is light and light is night,
when colors infuse in chromalight.

Her life, quartz reflection of blight,
drug-melanged vision, she stares inside,
the exit unseen, the end in sight.

Linger

Linger the dream of a first kiss,
dreaming the touch of your raw lips,
touching the light of ripe bliss,
lighting the cell your will keeps.

Behold the submission love inflicts,
submitting to lies reason forbids,
belying the hunger for untimely peace,
hungering death at your finger tips.

Harrowed Life

Quivering thunder of your ending heart,
an echo of love soon to be hollow.
We, once hearth, like embers pulled, die apart.

Like moonrise anew, your growing pallor,
confessing whisper ends futile revolt.
Strength, droughting river and life now harrow.

Memorial Day in memoriam

whose guilt will call,
for justice to fall?

for brothers in arms,
embraced by war's harms;

slaves who have bled,
diamonds stained red.

for animals' skin,
now haute couture sin.

oceans' whispering breath,
screams of imminent death.

for those who resist
swastika'd communist.

Tibetan monk's chant,
red sickle has stamp't.

for The People's blind trust,
raped by dictator's lust.

Muslim pride shorn,
Jewish life torn....

for child's ray of smile,
perversion turned vile.

ideals who've fallen,
ill and forgotten.

for whom should bells toll,
if not for us all?

love's death: a sonnet

eternal eyes,

goddess hair,

longing stare,

sorrow belies.

wistful guise.

failing care.

resigned despair,

mortal lies.

arcane lips,

lost face.

blood drips,

love's trace.

life's eclipse,

finally chaste.

numbers that pass/the passing of numbers (incomplete)

atone for a day's deed?
not on three hours of sleep.

upon my wrist a new scar;
I laugh as I think I've made it this far.

I planned, I thought my death,
A troubled life, one last breath.

From May, through fall

ONE

from May, from May,
from one, may two.
from Spring of May,
may love spring through.

TWO

through Fall, through Fall,
through love, be true.
through eve of Fall,
falls love for you.

death do us part

cast thine shadows away,
in dutiful sorrow I mourn.
night of darkness pray,
fateful morrow be born.

sordid jealousy shimmer,
simmering hate burn marrow.
predator eyes, hunt aglimmer,
my scorn'd countenance sallow.

despondent, satisfy hunger.
enraged, i find contentment.
tearful blood flows in anger,
dawn alighting lamentment.

this deathly horror i've lived,
shorn all hope to redeem.
once with your love bestowed,
now death, certain and keen.

sound words

word without sound,
my happiness fills.
sound without words,
silence that kills.

askance mood, depart.
release this sorrow.
depart, mood askance.
exile by morrow.

blessing my tears.
purpureus blood, bleed.
tears, my blessing.
spirit be freed.

anguished serenity

and if i said, would you believe me?

so, why should I say? just believe me.

in pain i lay, calling your name.

in pain i laid. you called my name.

was it mordant anguish? uncaring prying?

for anguished i was, trying and crying.

hurting to want, wanting to hurt

beholden, these eyes blinded by sugar,
descubren al fin, siniestro pasar.
bitter-filled sound, lover's laughter afar,
olas que rompen las sombras del mar.


porcelain body, in sodden touch mar,
sentencias mi ser, eterno pesar.
immaculate fire, cauterize scar,
mi virtud, verdugo, voy a vengar.

scars

scars.
i like.
for they have meaning.
markers of past, reminders that last.

scars of birth; marks of light; mother's milk. progeny pride.
pristine slice, precious brand, stained skin, shrinking gangrene.

scars.
i loathe.
for they mean nothing.
signs of vileness, symbols of evilness.

shreds of mind, eyes of dread; tyrannous truth, damaging dread.
burning shrapnel, bullet tumbling, tearing tissue, ripping reason.

take me away

"trance me, light with no name," say i;
don't know you, yet seek you must i."

tranquil ending, live to reach you;
expiate woes, surrender to you.

travesty end, raw truth binds us;
allegory of hope, numbs us.

tragic my fate, certain am i.
timeless contentment, desire i.

trap me, gently worn blanket, you;
help me endure to adore you.

elation

mirror loyal, white crystals?
heart sultry, displaced emotions?
energy dancing, open pupils?

leather elegant, blistered limbs?
razor tranquil, fresh wounds?
flesh beguiling, night ends?

graphite stoic, paper endless?
copy gleeful, manuscript fills?
life atoning, elusive visions?

love, avenging

the mischief of your lips,
poppies swaying, warm zephyr.
the poetry of your laughter,
loving call the robin seeks.

your body's pearly glow,
morning dew i must taste.
the essence of your state,
sweet, simple honey flow.

the fineness of your face,
moon of night, spell unfurls.
the secret of your curls,
black is night, deep is maze.

death fallen on your eyes,
fire burns, holy light.
your honor, sword of might,
justice swift, wrong it rights.

40 proof distorsion

i
  recall spinning lavender sounds, midsummer's lucid parody.

feel
      heartbeats tasting dark white, explosive moon rise.

pain
      conspiring gentle shrill visions, fire chilled thoughts.

within
      my mind's contriving touch, acrid silent crash.

me,
    distrusting death's deafening smell, alluring memory numbness.

to lash something green

life, illuminate meadow;
river sicken, cold shadow.

upon banner fly high,
peace between lands deny.

savia create root-deep,
decay, lapping your feet.

your eyes, esmeraldas, amor.
ripeness surrender, ignore.

wake spring, life serene.
tinge dead flesh, gangrene.

nature's gift, undeniable splendor.
serenity, envy, juxtaposition, verdor.

sign of imminent life.
us, mother earth, strife.

dare not ask why.
pain truly decry.

grief, regret, sorrow.
here today, gone tomorrow.