ode (a translation)

your body, whole.
morsel i crave for.

your mind, gold.
treasure i search for.

your tresses, breeze.
push i drift for.

your eyes, star.
brightness i ache for.

your lips, ember.
heat i die for.

your bosom, omen.
sign i pray for.

your legs, path.
destination i yearn for.

inhuman desire,
whirlwind, of fire.

love true.
return it…will you?

oda

tu cuerpo entero,
manjar fino.

tu mente, oro.
tesoro eterno.

tus rizos, velero.
viento lejano.

tus ojos, lucero,
iluminan camino.

tus labios, brasero.
calor asesino.

tus senos, crucero.
envío divino.

tus piernas, sendero.
añoro destino.

deseo inhumano,
cual torbellino.

amor sincero,
¿retornas? ¿si? ¿no?

experimental #0001

these thoughts impure,
i must endure.
escape from me.
depart.

your love impart,
for being apart,
torture for me.
pain.

my sorrow contain,
try in vain.
inflict upon me,
abuse.

your fire use,
forgive me muse.
desire tear me.
sufrir.

no quiero vivir.
me quiero morir.
¿quieres a mí,
dejar?

¿me quieres matar?
me quiero vengar.
deshazte de mí.
vivir.

sólo quiero vivir,
but staying here,
life in me,
loose.

my love refuse,
death pallor induce.
blood in me,
constrain.

say it again
truth don’t restrain.
tenderly, hold me.
heart.

your words hurt,
requiem, tragic art.
life for me,
unsure.

wallow in loathe; bask in dread; thrive on disdain

loathe and dread,
i cannot contain.
my daily bread.
should i refrain?

life's common thread.
always the same.
is it inbred?
pleasure of pain.

fearful edge tread.
this feeling disdain.
a maddening threat.
fight in vain?

easy

'hate myself for the damage, but don't think twice about causing it.

it feels so good at the time, yet turns so regretable later.

always, so eager to inflict. when done, so easy to sulk over.

so difficult to say "won't" so easy to renege on the word.

how easy it is to loathe self; troubling this love with self-hate.

are we quick to fall down? why so diffident to embrace joy?

how different do you think it would be, if turned 180 around?

Gone

pain unforced,
effect profound,
impact, true.

pain desired,
effect sought
impact, gone.