why would you think my post implied abuse? was my subconscious speaking for me? i cannot recall, but if i could would i want to? if i would want to, could i? why can i almost recall something, but not wholly?
why does there appear to be a blank where i want to find a memory? from where does this mistrust to catholic priest come? why was this last question so difficult to pose? why does the thought revolt me? why this guttural reaction, so overpowering, so wretchedly sickening?
did you know i was reared catholic? did you know i went to catholic school? did you know what i do not remember i remember happening during school? was the obvious to you, not apparent to me? what am i supposed to do now? are my woes not enough?
did you help me by revealing the obvious? did you do a disservice by revealing the obscure?
