2.25.2007

High Fidelity

love to the third power

love not = bijective function

love = gestalt

does the concept of synergy within the greater context of systems theory apply to love?

throughout history, countless instances of love, of 2+1, 1+2, explicit, implicit, exist. platonic, idyllic, carnal: the range. yet convention denies. society represses. a 1 challenges the 2, or 2 the 1.

in the continuum of permutations, mine.

once, i was the (1). my love for 1 in the 2, blinded me gracefully to the 2. i (1) knew the love; 1 was deeply and equally in love with me (1)...and the other [1]. when 1 admitted love, love was earnest. love was pure feeling, pure joy, blanket of fresh snow.

did the other [1] know? whether or if, it concerned me not. 1 was for me what 1 was willing to give me. i, (1) gratefully accepted. no regret. no antipathy. deeper than friendship, friendship beyond. passionate embrace, warmth of caress, submission to kiss. fulfillment, 1 offered; more, 1 offered, more 1 wanted, more 1 needed. i (1) did too.

i was the (1). i let 1 go, return to the 2. my love for 1, deep as it was, grew in the parting. in giving i (1) loved, in love i (1) remained. like a dream, it lingers. in memories it floats; pristine, elevating, a chapel to retreat when in need.

love, not of the flesh. farther removed from this reality, a connection to the core of existence in less than 14 hours within less than 14 days; soulmates within a fortnight; soulmate to a soulmate of another. unconflicting. enriching. elevating. it still is. it will always be.

now, again, love unspoken, for it will never be mentioned, defined as anything other than the love between friends by 1 to 2, 1 to (1), or (1) to 1. 1 will not love (1). 1 and (1) are friends, dear. (1) will be friend to 1. friend will be lover.

love constrained, red star, will grow supernova. (1) longing for 1; 1 desiring (1). love nurtured beyond physical bounds. spirits intertwined, bodies removed. metaphysical communion.

sensual purity. lovers undesirous of imaginary climax, chaste. lovers restrained to fantasies about fantasizing about a hypoplatonic instant. and their love, oh! their love. more intense than many so called, many physically rooted: all?

i (1) consumed, grow

our love grows

unspoken, as it must

2.21.2007

snap

i disavow.
relinquish now.

outside disturbance,
mental perturbance.

joy, fear...
...end near?

live life?
end strife?